Things Are Proceeding

Howdy all. November'23, eh? Yeah. That's been a bit.

Gonna probably post a little more as things go on, but here we are. 

Current status updates:

• Roller Derby: I announced my retirement with Lehigh Valley Roller Derby at the beginning of the year. After 17 years, I think I did what I wanted to do and things diverged quite a bit between where I wanted to be and where the league was going, so. I wish them well and I hope they do great things. 
• The Move: I decided that it was time that I was going to be moving to St. Louis. Those plans are still in movement and machination--will keep y'all informed about that at some point
• Roller Derby (again): With the move to St. Louis, there will be a transfer of one "Ria Culpa, #55" to Arch Rival Roller Derby and the St. Louis Gatekeepers. So, once the move is complete, that'll be complete.
• Work: Things continue apace but we'll see what the impact the move has on it. Again, I'll keep you up to date.
• Twitch/Other Stuff: I'll be jumping back on the streaming bandwagon soon, so see Final Fantasy and Shenanigans soon.
  

Lots of things moving at once, but here we are. I'm surviving, and moving apace.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Tarot Reading for Today [25 Jan 2020]

So, uh. This is bizarre. You'll see in a second.

Spread: 3 Cards
Question: What should I be aware of today?
Cards:

• Past: Empress, reversed
• Light, truth, unraveling of involved matters, public rejoice, or vacillation
• Present: 4 of Wands, reversed
• Increase, felicity, beauty, embellishment
• Future: Knight of Wands
• Departure, absence, flight, emigration, change of residence

Interpretation:

So, like, first of all. Weird, right? Same cards as before, though in a different order, and some are reversed... I dunno. Maybe I'm not shuffling enough. But I'm going to take it with good faith. 

So, I don't know if it's a hugely impactful spread. Maybe they don't always have to be? Maybe the scope of a spread doesn't have to be huge, in the grand scheme of things.

Looks like past is talking about my goals to be more open and forthcoming. Both in mental health issues, and the struggles I'm going through. I've been a hermit long enough. I don't have to be a hermit forever. Maybe? 

For present, increase... I don't know, I feel like the more I'm willing to be forthcoming with this stuff, the more people are showing actual reactions to me. Which I guess is both good and bad. Maybe people think I'm being an embellishing person, for attention, or some sort of sick notoriety? Perish the thought, honestly--I'd rather people think me histrionic than disingenuous.

For future, departure/absence/flight/emigration/moving, etc. I don't know if that's a portent or an opportunity. Like people moving in and out of my life--both good and bad? 

Gosh, this is a hard one to get a bead on. I'll have to chew on it a bit and if I think of anything particularly useful or insightful, I'll update this post.

Action(s):

• Reminder to myself that being honest and unabashedly me is--and always will be, imperfectly--a goal of mine. Hiding who I am to the universe doesn't do anyone any good.
• Another reminder to self: fluctuations of people in and out of my circle are inevitable. This is both heartwarming, and heartbreaking. But it is life, every ounce of happiness and pain that comes with it. I must be willing to take the bad with the good.

Tarot Reading for Today [19 Jan 2022]

So, yeah, I'm getting into this now. I'll post them as I do them. Feel free to ignore (if anyone even reads this! ha!). I'll be tagging them as "Tarot." Fear not, science-minded and skeptical individuals; I don't believe the cards/planets influence me directly--I just find it a good way to think about the world in a different way, which is always good data to help with bias/objectivity. Anyway...

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Spread: 3 cards

Question: What should I be aware of today?

Cards:

• Past: The Empress
• Fruitfulness, action, initiative, long days, clandestine, the unknown, difficulty, doubt, ignorance
• Present: Knight of Wands, reversed
• Rupture, division, interruption, discord
• Future: 4 of Wands
• Country life, repose, concord, harmony, prosperity, peace and the perfected work of these

Interpretation:

Honestly? I think this is talking about work? Maybe?

Spread-past seems to be talking about the long days of action regarding my efforts at work. Tons of clandestine, difficult data, decision making, decision influencing, and getting stuff done regarding the panini. “Ignorance” is funny, because it feels like we’re charging into the unknown with only 20% of the tools needed to do things correctly (not that anyone these days does, but, yeah). From database issues, to only being able to pull lists, to going around and doing things in the name of “Something has to be done!”--that feels appropriate. Ignorance. Wow. OK.

Spread-present, with “division, interruption, discord” seems to be talking about the various different folks running around working at different (although sometimes at cross) purposes. I feel like that’s pretty much accurate. Or maybe it’s about the whole “we have to do something!” working at odds with “yes, but are we sure we want to Big Brother and/or go draconian about the whole thing?” Hrm. Good things to think about.

Spread-future, well, let’s just say that’s a leap. A future of concord/harmony/prosperity? I don’t see it. Or at least I don’t see a pathway to get there from here. Maybe it’s a “one day this will all be over” or “this too shall pass.” But like I’ve been joking, while this too shall pass, it’s passing like a kidney stone NOW. So, let’s hope for better days, right?

Action(s):

• Try to remind myself that while my work, at times, seems fruitless… People do see what I’m up to, and it’s not wasted effort, even if it doesn’t come to anything concrete.
• Try to be the change I want to see in the world. Sow recovery and unity, not discord and frustration.
• Reminding myself that–while I’m the thick of it–things seem insurmountable, and frustrating, and never-ending… It will, eventually, pass. I should be able to take some comfort in that.

Everyday, Day 108 (1): I'm back!

Needed to take some time away from everything and redouble my efforts. I think I'm ready to jump back into this saddle. Et cetera.

Now, what should I draw?

Everyday, Day 107 (8): Flatu-larm

My body's telling me I should cut it out with all the beer.

And I'm inclined to believe it this morning.

Everyday, Day 106 (7): Old Dogs, New Games?

Look, yes, I did have humble bundle and steam sales that I wanted to play.

No, I haven't gotten around to them.

Yes, I intend to play them... eventually.

No, I realize I'll probably not get to all of them.

... But pokemon!

Everyday, Day 105 (6): Panic

So this was my morning. Hope you all are doing well. Aheh.